This post is prone to rambling, rant and other similar emotions.
I have come to office today after 2 days off to learn some month-end activities. They haven’t started so I checked the net for news on Mumbai attacks like I have obsessively done for some 50 hours past. And I am angry.
Posed as students. Came easily through Indian waters. Walked into CST. Gunned down civilians and moved on to Cama Hospital.
They are 21 years old. And according to Mumbai Mirror had no inkling that they are going to die.
What the fuck can corrupt a 21 year old educated youth’s mind so much that he is willing to kill a running mother and her baby? I know my generation and its desire for material success. Can really the the yarn of after-life-paradise-virgins-pouring-wine take out the charm of owning an apartment at Colaba and dining at the Zodiac Grill?
I have believed I am possessed with enough ability to put myself in anothers shoe. But I do not possess such searing empathy that I understand why he would stagger and strut after killing innocents and beg to be put on saline when he fears his own life.
How it isn’t the same this time-no more the spirit of Mumbai.
Why is it not the same?
Because the mass media has now realized what the terrorists have realized simultaneously? That blasting locals and crowded Gaffar Markets will kill a common man. Unaccounted for except the wife and children left behind, but people inside overpriced suites in Taj and Oberoi count for just that little bit more?
The IIT-ian at Leopold. He was to get married in a week.Imagine a life, how he must have studied for the JEE, how happy he must have felt on getting through, 4 years there, His courtship with a classmate, how he would have felt on proposing, when the girl accepted, his preparation for marriage, the friends who would have badgered out a bachelors party. 27 years of happiness and sadness. Meaning so much to so many. Did the person opening fire think of those 27 years? No. He didn’t. his target was to notch up as high a number as possible.
This time HNIs have been targeted. The poshest of the posh. It wont be ignored like the locals blown to bits in Jaipur. South Bombay is not Matunga.
I can only hope this will result in something and not rhetoric of bouncing back.
I wish the whole lot of them were inside the Taj. And I wouldn’t want a single commando to risk his life for them. They are the last people worth providing Z plus security. They should fear for their lives like I do when I step out of my home.
From terrorists. From gundas they fester.
I cant bear the thought of allegations-counter allegations and mud slinging that will follow.
I have mixed emotions about them. On one hand they did give minute by minute update. The reporters stationed for the 52 hours-weary but still carrying on.
But interspersing news with exclusive pictures on TimesNow and exclusive this and exclusive that, kind of irritated.
On top of that cricket tour cancelled. Err okay so? More relevant would be the diluge in TN by Cyclone Nisha-which most people must have not been even aware of.
Then the foreign media. Personally I flipped through CNN on the first day and their “US citizen have been targeted” really got my goat to not return. I read in the blogworld how they have gone on to criticize Indian security agencies handling the operation – Who knows which bullet killed the rabbi-the terrorists or the forces? And also India’s “knee-jerk” reaction in blaming Pakistan. This from the country which has mounted now-failing attacks on Iraq-Afghanistan after 9/11 in a completely thought out fashion for terrorists living in close-ally-against-war-on-terror Pakistan. With friends like these the US shouldn’t worry about enemies.
And frankly Indian bloggers you shouldn’t give CNN a damn.
You succeed not because of the system but despite the system.And thank God for that!
Lathis vs AK-47s and MP-6(which I thought were successors to MP3s). not an even battle but still you took the battle to them.
I don’t know what tomorrow holds. The well dressed layered tee guy next to me could take out a weapon from the bag he has slung over his shoulder and kill me without any remorse.The trainee sitting next to me could be doing recco for a future attack. You cant trust anyone. You are not safe anywhere.
Will it stop you?
As I said before it probably wont. People joked in the cafeteria about running away from CST on hearing the sounds of gunshots may finally have lead to losing couple of pounds.
Yes we will return to normal. Not because of any great possession of spirit because is there any other option?
You will mourn today and forget tomorrow. Elect the same people or make movie plans on election day. Go through life like everyday because you are alive and we HAVE got to move on, isnt it?
Till the next time of course.